I almost cried today . . . . . .

Okay, so I offer "Nachhilfstunden", after-school help, in English for free on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays for free!

note: I have charged up to 30 dollars an hour for help in languages

So clearly, many children came to get some help. Today, I had a new little girl whose English was superb for her age.

I sat the group in a circle (these kids are between 10 and 12) . . . . . and told them to just tell me about themselves in English . . . . and to tell me as much as they could . . .

I told them that they could talk about their teachers (I, of course, had to promise that nothing would leave the room, but suffice it to say that I had a good chuckle after hearing what my students thought about their teachers, lol) or anything else.

So, the little girl who I didn't know . . . . Ezra . . . . . started talking about her family, how her brother hates math . . . . and so I asked about her father . . . . .

She told me and the rest of the group that her father left her and her family for another woman in Turkey . . . . . . . and she said it was hard for her, and that she cries everyday . . . (y'all, I am not built for this kind of stuff, cuz I am sitting hear tearing up as I write this . . . . the impressive part is that she did not speak on word in German!!)

It took me everything in my power not to pick up this little girl, and just hold her. Many of the kids that I work with here have similar problems as minority youth in America . . . . . . I am not surprised, but I was definitely not expecting that!

At any rate, I told everybody that if I heard one peep about anything that was said . . . . I would mos def not be a nice person . . . . . .. .

At any rate, the next little girl talked about her family, and their problems . . . once again, I was impressed everything was in English . . . . but my heart was slowly breaking . . . .

So, I had to change the tone of this conversation, and also make sure everybody was learning . . . . . and they were . . . . I noticed a difference, at the very least in their confidence levels, which is very important!

I know I am here to do something special, I just haven't quite grasped it yet . . . . . but I suddenly feel inspired!

as a sidebar, I just came from a gospel group rehearsal, and I have been invited to sing with the Bochum Philharmonic Choir!! My spirits are def up, I just want to do so much for these kids.

Also . . . . if anybody knows how I can make a Halloween party appealing to a bunch of 18 year olds, please hit me up!

LaSean